Just a few months ago I was caught up in my own emotional battle from the bipolar that I was “diagnosed with”. Since then I have been building my relationship with the Lord.
I am amazed at the change in my home. I not only feel peace but I find myself wanting to create more enjoyable moments for the family.
Our most recent was jumping in the leaves.
The kids really enjoyed it.
Having a memorable moment with my little ones was wonderful, but I also got something extra out of the moment.
I really enjoy photography. This was a great opportunity to nurture one of my interests as an individual while still being a loving and attentive mother.
I am grateful that I gave my life to the Lord. I know that the only reason things are changing in our life is because I opened the door of my heart to Jesus.
I still have things to work on, but with Jesus in my heart the walls are going to come down.
This one moment of fun is a great start to a wonderful future for our family.
Thanks for taking the time to stop by. May you have a blessed day.
I’m going to say it right off the top. I’m a messed up person.
All my years on this earth i have been struggling. At an early age i was put with this stigma, being told i was crazy by family and friends. I pushed through all that, somehow convincing myself i was fine.
For quite sometime i was just fine. I had separated myself from my family and all my supposed friends that i felt caused me me so much pain. I was in a new place and made new friends. Friends that were just as messed up as me.
Then that stopped working. So i went home. Then once again i was fine. My family had noticed i had changed. That i had grown up. However, i still hurt inside. I was lonely and scared. I always seem to be lonely and scared.
I would tell myself that if i just did this or did that i would be happy. If i found a real friend or started working from home. But there is always an empty spot in my heart.
Now i wound up in Alabama away from everyone i know because of all this. Feeling as though my world was crumbling almost daily. Something had to be done and now! I couldn’t continue to live this way. I deserve better and so do my kids.
So when my world disappeared ad i know it i searched my heart. Something told me to go to church. I found a non-denominational church close to home.
This place was filled with love. I felt it from the moment i walked in the door. But i had a hard time accepting all of it at first.
My mom had raised me in the Lutheran church, but as a teenager i pushed Christianity under the bus. I thought that it was all fake. Instead i tried to finf solace in other religions.
I had predispositioned myself to question truth.
Now i reached a point where the question was no longer is this true? But rather, why do i have such a hard time seeing the truth.
If i can believe in witchcraft, Tao, and any other religion i tried to fill that emptiness with than why can’t i believe in the word?
My conclusion, i have spent so much time looking for truth that when i see it i can’t see it.
When i realized this i finally opened my heart up. I let the word in my heart.
Something amazing happened since then. I no longer feel lonely. I no longer feel scared. I’m not going to say things are perfect. Life isn’t perfect.
I have found the best friend i could ever have. I don’t need to scroll through my phone book looking for someone to talk to. I just look at the sky and talk. I am always listened to. And he is never ever to busy for me.
I am free.
Thanks for stopping by. Pleasant journey to you. Till next time. 🙂
P.S. sorry about any grammar errors. I’m posting from my phone.
Some days can get a bit overwhelming in our house, especially on weekends.
Today happened to be one of those days. As things started to escalate i took a moment to pray. I was at a loss and have discovered that asking for help from my friend Jesus keeps me focussed in chaotic times.
The conclusion i came to was to spend a little quality time doing something the kids would like. So i gathered up some supplies.
Then proceeded to let them each create a masterpiece.
Adelia made an A for her name.
Hunter chose a H for his name too.
I even got in on the fun.
My house calmed down a bit after that. We even have some left over supplies so we can do it again tomorrow.
Thanks food taking the time to read. Have a pleasant journey. Till next time. 🙂
P.S. I’m still getting users to this phone application but loving the ability to share right ay my finger tips. 🙂
Recently I moved into my own place. I live in a small town so there wasn’t much to choose from. Especially since I’m on a tight budget. I found a place that has just enough space and is close enough to walk everywhere I need to go.
The thing is, is this place was a mess! The previous tenants had left the place trashed. There are holes in the wall that need repair. The walls need to be painted. he carpets need a good cleaning. This is just what needs to be done for the home itself. Continue reading
When I started this blog I was afraid. I was scared that if I opened up and let the world know who I was that I would be judged for having bipolar and border line personality disorder. So I made my blog anonymous, but I notice it is hindering my creative side. It’s taking away from my authenticity. Therefore, over the next few days I will be changing my about me page to real names and will even start posting pictures of us.
I am no longer afraid of who I am. I am free to be me. I have come to terms with this.
If anyone feels the need to judge me that is their deal. It is life. People judge.
I look forward to opening up and sharing more about me and my family, and how we deal everyday with this mishaps of life as well as the joys. I look forward to sharing the tips I’ve learned along the way.
Thank you for stopping by and taking the time to read. Pleasant journey to you. Till next time. 🙂
The other day when I took my kids to the park I decided to bring my new camera along. I was so excited about it that I started taking pictures of what ever I found interesting. I took many pictures of flowers.
I really got excited about this one because as I took the picture the grasshopper landed on it just long enough to get the shot. It reminded me of the wonders of life. How quickly they can come and go.
Pay attention and you will see more wonders before they pass you by.
Thank you for taking the time to stop by. Pleasant journeys.
One of the things about being bipolar and borderline personality is despite how inspired or goal orientated I intend to be things get a little chaotic and it’s easy to get distracted. With the upcoming adventures I have it is so very important for me to keep focused.